I wrote your name several times in the sand

Yet always was it washed away by the ocean

You marked my heart like I do the land

Letters written by subconscious motion

Waters brimmed the single Word

Like you filled my single heart

Leaving me an ache uncured

Having to restart

Taken back into the sea

I do not complain and only stare

All was taken when you left me

So im now beyond a care

Watching as that which I had created crumbled

there’s probably something I should have learned

For in the act of love I’d been humbled 

But these scars are all that I had earned 

So I sit here and scribble

Over and over again

Your name…..

Like a song ending-a spell broken…

that feeling we shared-but a token..

Not a treasure-what may have been…

A futile struggle- I could not win..

The news you gave- wish I was deaf..

Prepared me not-for that day you left..

Friends we were-twas our demise..

For The truth we shared- hid our biggest lies..

I took a risk yet was never given the chance..

Was given the kiss but never a romance..

I promised you me-every time i spoke the word..

Yet you left me mute-and my love was unheard..

I chased and I tripped-but not from a drug..

Though you got me so high-twas a hole I dug..

Sent me to my grave -a situation ..

and all that was simple became a complication..

You walked out the door-and I was the doormat..

And you always felt clean-cuz you knew where I was at.. 

You rubbed off on me and I welcomed you in..

But it seems I’ve  committed my own mortal sin..

I had full knowledge-I knew who you were..

Full consent-I was so sure..

Serious nature-it put my heart in flame..

Nature hearts and fire-no one can ever tame…

So we run wild like the animals we project..

And we hunt for that mate we want always to protect..

Yet we find them lying in the den of another..

And it isn’t only a howl but a dream that we smother..

So we fall and fall into restless sleep..

Pretending that we’re awake but we’re in too deep..

At the oceans bottom where we thought a treasure lay..

But i dove and searched and instead had to pay…

A piper who played a beautiful song..

So you stopped and you listened- and I was left in the wrong…

Alone and tuneless with the notes I sung..

But got played like keys while a mono-chord swung..

But unlike pendulums you cant go forth and back..

So I go on knowing that its you I lack..

Dehydrated in the desert-an image of you..

Tis but a mirage-an illusion true..

It is like magic where misdirection is key..

But any way you look at it, you deceived me..

I love you-isn’t a gesture or words to a song..

twas the end of road that we knew was long.. 

Forgotten that is-better to forget..

So we part ways and pretend we never met..

The beginning reflecting its very end..

With A heart carrying wounds it can never hope to mend.. 

Deuces-one for me, one for you..

But there is nothing left to say or do..

I took it all and wrote you this.. 

You’re the beautiful girl I will always miss..

Goodbye Babycakes…

I’m going to start with the first thing i noticed about you at that football game SO many years ago … I miss those beautiful deep smiling eyes.. the ones that made me want to trust you without even knowing you…..I miss that perfect smile that reflected the woman who wore it- accompanied by tender lips that no man could resist looking at while you spoke such beautiful things.. I miss that flawless skin which i was afraid to touch; for my hand were to sinful to touch such purity ….. then we spoke… I miss that laugh which no smile could resist… I miss that wit which made logic seem a simple matter.. I miss that independence that assured me i would have to worry too much about you but made me want to more when we were apart…. I miss that fire for life which kept me warm throughout some very cold World days… I miss that voice that made me quite all my senses just to better hear you- the one that comforted and accompanied me as i walked alone on cold snowy streets … I miss the way you used to play with you dog as we talked on the phone… I miss all the inspiration you gave me and hope and confidence.. I miss The joy I felt in my heart whenever we were together.. I miss the smile i used to wear whenever i thought about you… I miss.. I MISS YOU

I MISS HER SO MUCH… MY HEART JOURNEYS FORWARD HEAVY WITH THE KNOWLEDGE THAT I WILL NEVER BE NOTHING MORE TO HER THAN AN ATTRACTION… I WOULD GIVE HER THE WORLD AND SHE WOULD BUT GIVE ME A SMILE … NOT A THANK YOU. BUT AN ACKNOWLEDGEMENT THAT SHE GOT WHAT SHE FELT SHE DESERVED FROM ME… NOTHING MORE… I WILL WALK THIS WORLD WITH A HOLE IN MY HEART CUT WITH HER VERY MOUTH AND REJECTION…

Shes silent like the snow..singular perfect white..yet so to does she fall and dirty herself .. touching an unclean earth- devoid of any care for her purity..So high now so low…

I try to catch her..softly tenderly caring..a singular moment of clarity..the sensation when she touches my skin-shivers to my soul..Yet she melts away…

GIRLS STATUS- With Cory and Roxie, feeling better so freaks who said me messages asking how I am leave me the f***k alone.

BOY WHO THINKS HES SMART(Hes really an ASS)-Haha wow what a bitch xD 

I know you *may* not be used to this, but I was actually interested in helping you feel better. 

It’s nice to see that guys aren’t the only ones who can be like this, it makes me look a whole lot better.

GIRL-**** You

BOY…SMART(ASS)-Not even if you were attractive, dear ;)

ME-Dude really just leave her alone…If you really want to help her and actually a guy “Concerned” then youll do what she asks.. that last remark was very childish on your part.

BOY…SMART(ASS)-I don’t feel the need to be the bigger person every second of my life, dude. I’m 19, if a girl calls me a freak for asking about her problems after she ADDED ME and posted a request in an update for someone to help her feel better, then I have no qualms with a petty comeback here and there. 

Although I can appreciate your levelheadedness, it’s rather unnecessary. And I DID leave her alone, that was the last thing I said to her, because she said “**** u” 

If you want to **** this girl, go about it a different way. Your white knighting has no place here.

ME-haha Im hardly a white knight.. and knights are often overrated ( A fact you would have hid well if not for the many blemishes on your white armour).. Your final comment slightly annoyed me because it couldve easily just ended with a simple “**** you” , yet your comment seemed to reopen the door and was totally unnecessary .. You never seemed like a level-headed person for all your words held subtle venom.. Idk what your age has to do with anything?? Maybe you were trying to insinuate that you cant help making such stupid remarks do to the often ignorant perception of many men with your years?(Its a horrible excuse but i garuntee you did not think so do to the ignorance you have shown).. I also ask that you please do not pretend or even try and guess my intentions in this matter for obviously you cannot comprehend them.. just admit you felt slighted and outve anger you retorted in a childish manner .. though your intentions may have initially been well(and in this, I give you the benifit of the doubt though i think otherwise), they werent as true as you tried to paint them.. I do not know this girl but she is obviously upset and you do not help any situation with your snide double-faced remarks.. Dont pretend to be a good samaratin sir for your words and actions speak otherwise.. If you want to insult a person, be it man or woman, be a man and do it directly( like she so finely displayed towards you) Dont hide behind the justification of “good”intentions.. Now be a “good” person and leave me alone.

RANDOM GUY-She did thing too me Yu dum bitch

ME-Really man^?First of all If you are gonna say any type of **** at all, after what just just transpired, you must be an idiot(though you can clearly get that from the writing as well)… And second, Please have the common decency to use full sentences and proper English skills, so that we can at least understand you man(not that we want to)…SMH